today i told my wife, I have 4 best friends whom had shaped my life since i could remember.
When I faced my biggest fear in my life, when i couldn't believe i can score 30 marks for an exam at a young impressional age, where exams was always a breeze for me before and always used to being top few of the class. At a time where there was no external problems issues, no distrations no inner problemes, life smack me with sudden failure. to me it was a huge shock, i cried where i was, in the middle of the class..
Many of my friends saw, most shunned, many do not know how to react, many felt pity but they were off to play, there is nothing anyone can do anything. A Friend offered me a soft encouragement, she wrote a letter to encouraged me. forever I am indebt to her. I work up and realised i need to work hard, life is not handled to me on a platter.
She forever changed my life, even though she did not know it nor did i tell her... I am forever grateful sister... You will never know... Pray one day before we depart from this earth. I will share with you my gratitude and not only when we meet again in eternal peace in the house of the lord.. Thank you for sharing with me the love of christ that works miracle in your life.
Every year my dear friend. she remembers me. I am grateful.
My 2nd Best friend is also best friend of the first and my strong crush,
when i faced the biggest humiliation of my life, as a young boy, being teased by my school mates, by the senior boy whom is at the same school level as me. for a exposed secret accidently discovered and after being written down and left under the table of the class..
She did not tease or shamed me, did not shy away nor angry at me. she spoke to me gently, encouraged me, nothing turns out. our lives parted directions, she grew busy with school, church and her best friends, I went to a different school, got busy, pursuing victories, in part in memory of her..
following years she found me back several times, many times inviting to church.
I guess we grew distant...
She taught me how to face humiliation and have courage in face of troubles.
My 3rd best friend, Stood by me when i was in the loneliest period of my life in army. she is sillily innocently caring for me, listening to my grosses.. nothing she can do but just listening to me..
She taught me how to face my ownself.
We grew apart, she follow her step by step earthly path. I continue to dream and desire to scale heights... she found happiness with a senior friend, equally innocent charming.
Maybe one day, i shall find time to see her again... but dun think she will understand me as well...
To her I am grateful
My 4th best friend,
Came to me from land far away, at a time when troubles seems abound, her own troubles abounds as well, she wanted to share some experience with me.
We were like 2 sides of the same hand, never before i knew a person this intimately,
Yet, events abounds things happens so quickly, relationship build up so fast, yet also unravel so fast.. Memories, treasures to me, but maybe nothing to her.
I guess, i failed her many tests... doesn't matter, she suffered... grown sick.. grown pained... on my birthday 3rd march 2018... she died.
My heart felt pained.. I grieved, I called out to her...
there was no answer
how can i talk to a person whom had died..
never again will i see her sweet smile..
never again will i hear her words of encouragements
nor innocent carings...
never again will i hear her dreams, her wishes
because i had killed her with my own hands... i had placed her in the grave..
my heart pained, there is nothing i can do...
death is death..
once again ... i am on the journey on a solo path... so lonely....
god... help me....
She is in a better place now, she is in a place where joy abounds, acceptance abundance,
I had promised her my vow, i will sacrifices my karma for her, she may think i am a joke, i dunno, did she believe it? doesn't matter now..
I shall only remain true to my own vow to her, I shall honour my words, her well being being as the most important. even if it means... leaving...
I promised to support, i vowed to give without return.. and so i shall...
My best friend had died...
never coming back..
I shall not pursue..
I shall remember her words, and walked on bravely.. as she told me to
